FINDING THE GOOD IN DOING IT WRONG

True happiness comes when we don't require the need to feel happy. -- William Saroyan

Off the top of my head, I'm thinking that quote may be true, but achieving it comes by giving up our self-determined objectives. By not so much seeking to know God's will (a self-determined objective in itself) but by opening ourself to God's will without a clue what God's will is in the moment. It kinda boils down to risking the right to be wrong...never willing wrong to happen but, if it is God's will, willing. 

Basically, our mind is changed, and that change comes by not seeking to know what God's specific will is for us personally. (Our own want gets in the way every time.) Ah, there it is: Our inner realization steps out assuring us that God, the Father, lives within...with only our good resulting.

We can make ourself seem to be sweet, kind, considerate, lovable and generous...for a while. We can act as if...for a while. But if our heart isn't in it...if our consciousness has not been raised, our mind exchanged...that fizzles out, and we're left feeling the phony by not being true to ourself or our God. 

Living a turned-over-to-God life is our hope of heaven. It may be our only hope of heaven, and it takes every minute of every day not trying for that. but living that. The egoic mind immediately tries to figure out how to do that. We do that by not being afraid of making a fool of ourself...by risking showing our ass in public (which is also spiritual...who knew?)...by willingly throwing our idea of ourself under the bus, chancing being wrong so God will have a clear path coming to our aid...and all that unintentionally!

We can't get our realization by making end-runs around God and God's will or by our thinking or even by our wanting. It takes being willing, we're talking honestly and sincerely willing, to, among other things, feel unloved, unwanted, unneeded and unappreciated because: I gut-bucket know from my toenails up that God cannot not love me just as I am warts and all. 

I don't expect to get there in this lifetime...but I am willing and I do aim for that. I do walk forward with God as my goal, getting it wrong as often as not, but, according to Fr Richard Rohr, we don't get to God by doing it right, we get to God by doing it wrong. Hey...I'm on my way!

Thank you.