From Mirabai Starr’s translation of Julian of Norwich’s Showings: Sometimes, however, [God's] sacred sweetness lies deeply buried, and we fall again into blindness, which leads to all kinds of sorrow and tribulation. *** We need to stand up against evil, even if to do so causes discomfort—even pain—and pray for the time when God will once again reveal himself....And so we remain in this muddle all the days of our lives.
And so we remain in this muddle all the days of our lives.
There. Even Julian of Norwich tells us that we remain "in this muddle all the days of our lives," i.e., egoic mind taking charge even with our spiritually changed mind. We recall that God is not available on demand, that there are many times our inner knowing of God in our life is missing.
Which explains why we must needs keep a constant guard on our thinking, more precisely on our attitude. We come to know and to know deeply that develop an attitude of gratitude is no throwaway line.
One fine day...or hour or minute...we get a cluster-clue...all the little clues we've received from the start come together, and we get our Ah-Ha moment. Repeat...moment. We know and we know we know, and it is gone, and we wonder...we doubt...we think about it. Ah, there we are, feeling like we're going down that wrong road again.
That is the exact time we learn to pray our thank you prayer...for that very pondering and doubting. That is proving the truth and the value of Julian's And so we remain in this muddle all the days of our lives.
That is the birth of realization...perfection is not ours, was never meant to be ours. It is our doubting that keeps us searching, that is God's invitation to God. When he comes, we are filled with grace and gratitude; when he's a no-show, we slowly, gradually, one teeny-tiny step at a time, feel a smidgen of love...and we laugh.
Who knew?...remaining in a muddle is doing it right! Proving the truth of one of our clues: We must go beyond reason to love.
Thank you.
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