Blinding flash of the obvious: Never fear losing...that's where God stands, ready to catch us when (not if) we fall.
More and more I am seeing that our shortsightedness lies in our trust in winning. We have been taught and, against our own experience, continue to believe that winning is The Answer...our solution...our brass ring...our happy ever after.
Again I am called to Rohr's "We get to God by doing it wrong not by doing it right." Or, my point, we get to God by losing not by winning. To the reasoning mind, that is hogwash, not to put too fine a point on it. We must go beyond reason to love.
We can be grateful for the grace of God, good mentorship and loyal friends that our mind has a crack in it...or, more appealing, is ajar. We rely on still more spiritual growth to stay it there since our own ego will ever be legislating for "a better way"-- its way.
The danger with winning is it has such a fabulous material-world reputation. Face it, its reputed potential is hard to hate. But the very want to win, anything, can at some point become a self-determined objective which quick, fast and in a hurry becomes our singular focus...transmuted into the God of our understanding.
The spiritual reality is that it takes losing to discover "that winning feeling" within us...already there awaiting our awakening.
In losing we find God...and the many unmet-yet friends to welcome us. In the momentary feel-good of winning, we stand alone. It is a solitary trip...but isn't that what ego is?
A word about ego. I choose to believe that we need neither hate nor fear ego, but freely love it. Who's kidding whom, it is ego that keeps still more spiritual growth our forever goal. I kinda think of ego as God's BFF...a good reminder to me when I get short with it...or when the possibility of winning pops up, singing my song.
Thank you.
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