When we are going through our dark night, the very name tells us this is not even supposed to be comfortable, fun or Life-Lite. No. It is to turn us from our mental perception of self...i.e., me and how to protect me...inward to a Power greater than self and how to live it.
Again we find the main block is our reasoning mind...when we break through to agreement with what we are learning, we expect that agreement has sealed the deal. It is as if we never heard of the word "begin." In this case, the mental resistance we just hurdled convinces us we're on the good side of that dark night. No. We've only just begun.
Our beginning is the healing, and we heal from within. Think of a papercut...we put soothing balm on it, we do what we can to take away the hurt, but the healing comes slowly, and it comes from within. Of course, a papercut is no dark night, but in spiritual growth it helps to find a correlative, a mental-manageable to aid in breaking down our own resistance...to ease us into our changing mind.
In our dark night all that we knew or thought we knew about the God of our own understanding gets tossed, turned inside-out and upside-down, slaps us upside the head, spits in our eye, calls us less-than, and laughs in our face...seemingly.
In today's world there are way too many books about cutting short the pain, getting around it, putting it on someone else (remember our old go-to: perfect peace is having someone to blame). Our "beloved" common sense has us try some or many or most of those how-to, which isn't all wrong since very little gets us to surrender faster than self-inflicted mental pain (and is there any other kind?).
Comes a dawning...we realize that for which we are searching, the healing our hurt demands, is within us. It is in the dark night of our Soul where we give up our imagined God, the healer, giver, peace-forever person out there that we have longed-for...and we find God.
Without any possibility of fully comprehending that we have only just begun.
Thank you.
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