I've been all up in my head about my insurance and whether to go with a new medicine that I've been prescribed or to stick with the vitamins I've ever depended on.
I heard me this morning asking God if He could help me, and I immediately realized that this is God helping me.
To me this is the rocky road to acceptance. Having learned that acceptance is the answer no matter the question, we want to believe that it is ours when we feel that first frisson of uncertainty. Ah, it is our uncertainty that leads the reasoning mind to resist, but it is God that uses our uncertainty to lead us through that resistance.
Face it, how else do we get to acceptance when we meet up with an unanswerable question, ergo fear?
God is not available on demand and neither is acceptance. Demand is just another self-determined objective. The perfect objective which is of God is our opportunity to ponder not our uncertainty, but God...or rainbows and roses...or puppies, laughter and love.
Turn our thoughts away from our perceived problem, pray our thank you, and in God's good time, we will not necessarily know exactly what to do, but we will be satisfied that God does, and that He has our back. Then we're freed up to do something about something.
We learn whether we've done it right, and if not, to promptly admit it, and do the next thing. That way we head off personally perceived disasters...take each next step Now so we can quickly realize whether we need to turn back or to relax. When done Now, before our reasoning mind gains purchase, acceptance carries us through.
There, that's the way of acceptance, and it works...also it is an almost impossible lesson to remember. It works, but then so does our reasoning mind. Until we learn to discipline it (three days after we're dead, according to me), it natters...and a lot louder than God.
Lessons learned: Meditate daily, contemplate even more, and pray thank you without ceasing. Then, in time, we come closer to living in acceptance.
Thank you.
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