The peeps I know and love, including myself, chose a wicked, rough way to roll...self-absorbed, period. Which, on looking back, we realize as the best for us for it got us right where we are and need to be. (The "need" is our assurance that God's hand was and is in it...short form, wants are of self, needs are of God.) We have the scars, the breaks and the bruises to prove: our choice, our life. And perfect to get us back to God, the God of our own understanding, which as we slowly learn is the hidey hole of the peace that passes understanding.
Again (and ever) slowly we learn there is no inherent peace in our wants, especially when prettied up seemingly for others. Surface wants are simply with us, usually corralled by Weight Watchers and such, and inner wants are only wrong when we send them out masquerading as a need for ourself or for another.
The Father knows our needs...and our needs will be met only in accordance with God's will. There it is, our heads up. We'd best prepare for frequent changes of mind.
If a want of ours is self-serving seeming to us to be a need, our real need is to dig deeper...with thank you on our lips and in our hearts. Shame and blame are egoic pain...loose them and let them go.
Clearly, or according to me, still more spiritual growth is not self-directed or by way of deliberation. Giving of a helping hand, of money, clothes, food, disaster relief, etc., are all good, but if our reason for doing them is for self, even to lift us into God consciousness (face it, to be worry free), we are going down that wrong road again.
We make a decision to turn our will and our life over to the care of God as we understand him...and willingly spend the rest of our life trying to live that decision.
And here's the word without the hair on it: Without blame or shame, with love and laughter.
Thank you.
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