Hard lesson learning...possibly the hardest: Trusting that our missteps, misspeaks, etc., in the mirror vision of God, are essential for the humility life requires if we are to be free.
I wonder if trusting God isn't basically trusting our own self. More to the point, trusting our own self in God.
I seem to be ruing every word of my shares recently. My early morning blinding flash: But those are my gold...those are the words that show the innermost me...the sometimes scared, not sure, don't know, me. Let them be. Know them for good.
Don't tell me God doesn't have my back. I just read Fr Richard's "Daily Meditation," and there it is, where I hope I am: Wise fools are always formed in the testing ground of exile when the customary and familiar are taken away and they must go deeper and much higher for wisdom.
That dispels my discomfort in being moved from "the customary and familiar." It also assures I'm going in the right direction by that very movement which feels so un-right. Finally, it allows me to be comforted in the possibility of qualifying as a "wise fool."
All over again...God's ways will never make it in the reasoning mind world. We must go beyond reason to love.
Thank you.
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