I believe that our first glimpse of understanding that mistakes are the proof that we're doing it right is our building block in finding humility...where else is humility so readily available than in our admission of a mistake?
Here then is a rerun of my post of December 19, 2019:
We come to believe by experiencing. When we experience the wonders of our Father, we cannot not believe.
All of our perceived problems, our worrit du jour, have already been fixed, healed, lifted by God. Which remains "coincidence" for a long, long time. And that is as it must be. We fret at our unbelief when in fact we're doing it right. Our fret is our impetus to go deeper...deeper into our own self as opposed to yet another how-to book.
We must take care, however, that our certainty of God does not become the enemy, ego. Unless we practice our faithful words, as in do that which our perceived problem has us in fear of, saying God's got this is just so many words...and a block to us.
The unsettling part of practicing our words is that we fail so often. But of course we fail! That's the basis of our fear! How else do we get to the other side of our fear but by stepping out into it? Falling, getting up, trying a different tact, falling but less hard...with deeper assurance...each time.
I've come to believe that this is the fruit of what Jesus said about his lessons being too much for us to take in all at once. Those missteps, mistakes, ego-deflaters are spiritual growth aborning. That's us being shown bit by bit but only as we put in more God time, lessening the me-first time.
Call it the fallacy of personal certainty, the gift of impersonal unknowing. Or, I have yet many things to say unto you, but ye cannot bear them now. -- John 16:12
Thank you.
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