...for each blow to the life of self you must at the same time embrace and hold fast the new Life, Life with Me. - "God Calling," May 3
I wonder if our free will doesn't always supersede God's will, at least in the egoic mind? But isn't that where free will lives, in the reasoning mind? I wonder, too, if our conscience isn't...hasn't always been albeit ignored...our divining rod for God's will?
In my material world, the world of my ego, my want-to seems to always supersede God's will. (That's why spiritual discipline is so necessary.) In my inner world, the world of my Soul, God's will speaks. To me, the inner world is the mirror-world of the Lord where the naked eye sees in reverse...self sees ugly, calls it bad and resists, Self sees the same thing, knows it for good and welcomes.
I suspect that it is our decision to renounce the free will we were gifted with at birth that turns us upward toward the God of our own understanding deep within. That decision does not come from thinking, analyzing or reasoning it through...it almost always comes only after a deeply personal experience sometimes known as "crash-and-burn" for it is excruciatingly, crash-and-burn, painful.
This is known as a consciousness raising. Our consciousness has been transmuted...or converted, if you will...for the the care and concern of others and, most importantly, without our egoic self having anything to do with it.
To quote my beloved Fr. Richard Rohr, We change consciousness and operate from mercy and graciousness.
Thank you.
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