At some point, I saw that my life had pretty much been built on my petty aversions, self-centered objectives and compulsive wants. I am convinced it was the inner guidance of personal goodness, God, that turned me around through the utter collapse of self, a.k.a., crash-and-burn.
I once wondered, when we get inner guidance and good does not follow immediately, if it might not have been wishful or magic thinking. I suspect, though, that "immediately" is the source of our discontent, the basis of our missteps, with our p.d.q. want, not God's will, being the driver.
Gratefully, we come to realize that however we follow a thought or an inspiration is for our ultimate good...all paths eventually lead to God. Our spiritually developing self makes our free choices today as to what path we walk, and there is no time limit, only Now. Now may take us several lifetimes, but it is still Now.
It is in the slow, painful birth of our spiritual conscience that grace grows. Who knew that it could be our very own conscience that would lead us toward freedom from self? Underneath it all, and since we want to release the good in our own self, our conscience is really all about the care and concern for others. It is also, therefore, our ego's bane.
I'm guessing the birth of conscience is slow and painful because at the door of death we are still birthing it. Who wants to die with hate in our heart? But hate is just a CYA for fear, and, again I'm guessing, more folks die with fear than with love in our heart.
We are on the right path heading in the right direction when we love the fear in our heart knowing it is the Welcome! to God's knock on our door.
Thank you.
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