GOD IS NOT AVAILABLE ON DEMAND

Got myself a new car. Am happy with it...more happy that I'm shut of the old one. But the hassles that go with getting new/getting rid of old just drive me...period.

I fully realize why being rich as Midas would not be a bad thing...I'd never again have a hassle. I'd just throw money at it. That action that I condemn so vocally all the sudden sounds like a really good thing.

I cannot believe the number of DMV offices that are closed. I had to renew my driver's license this past March, and I wondered why my new one simply arrived in the mail. There's no office to go to in order to get it done. I think my picture on it is 10 years old which is hard to hate, and I'm not complaining. I looked better ten years ago...or maybe not better, but younger...plus, it saved me a hassle!

But getting my license plates returned...sheez. In truth, I haven't had that big a hassle yet...I'm just dreading it. I found one office that is supposed to be open but I just know when I get there it'll either be closed this day or was open for an hour and just closed  or won't open for another three hours.

Here's me, once again, married to my reasoning mind when the flea bites of life come. And I know that I have the very real option of turning my thoughts to lilies of the valley, i.e., peace in the valley of my mind, of simply moving forward, hoping (not expecting, but hoping...softer let down) for the best outcome.

There...the unbelievably humongous and difficult turn has begun to take place. I'm feeling a crack in my it's-not-fair armor, the armor I call "hassle."  Spelling all my objections out for me to see...rather than having a constant irritating screech in the back of my mind that I'm afraid to look at because it must be bad to sound that awful...solutions come to mind, options open up. God is on the field...I've been benched.

I can drive over, and if any or all of my dreads are true, go to the post office and mail those suckers in. But I can't mail them without checking because then I wouldn't have done my part...and God is not available on demand.

Thank You.