MY EGO'S TOYS

...in the home begins the disruption of the peace of the world. -- Mother Teresa of Calcutta

I read that this morning and flashed that it is ego-victory thinking that begins the disruption of our peace of mind. I wonder if ego-victory thinking isn't simply resistance to whatever is that the ego fears, resulting in attack thoughts, i.e., ways to pay back, get over on...resentment in a word.

My comforting realization was that I saw my attack thoughts as nothing but my ego's toys...just for playing with, stack 'em up, knock 'em down, rearrange them. The toys of my ego are harmless in and of themselves. Give them no power, as in acting on them or even sharing them with others as fact, and they fade away. The nature of the ego, of course, is to ever be on the alert to protect itself...so attack thoughts do not die, they simply retire to ready themselves to charge again.

The final, and most important, part of my realization was that I know that I will not say or do the ugly that my attack mind conjures up. I know that, first, because I never have either from cowardice or good sense because my attack mind can get downright mean. I know that, second, because I trust God. I trust that God has my back.

Yes, I am capable of ugly, but God is greater than I am. That is why my sole/Soul goal is still more spiritual growth. Without that, I am capable of anything my worst offender is capable of, and, no doubt, more to my ego...if it can't be first, it'll go for worst.

Thank You.