A new way of looking at/feeling toward a friend came to
me this morning. On the one hand, she is a lovely gracious and giving person
with a great sense of humor; on the other, she has a
too-often-present competitive attack mode.
My BFO: When in that mode, she is my angel of the emery
board. (I have come to believe that people who rub us the wrong way are our
emery boards, helping to smooth our resistance into acceptance.)
Her too-often-present competitive attack mode is
exactly what I resist. It intimidates me, so when she is in that mode, my
attitude judges, with my mouth pursed, which triggers more attack.
I know “that which we resist, persists” so I need to start
to walk this through (find my acceptance) with gratitude in grace…I have
started just through my BFO of recognizing this.
Actually I haven’t started…”It is finished.” My reasoning
mind is all set to ponder this forever and do nothing. In fact, the problem is
solved through the recognition. The rest is all in the discipline
of training my mind to focus on the fact of my own freedom. All that is
required is a “Thank You” when this angel of the emery board rises up and my
judgmental mind starts to answer.
It will be interesting to me to see how long I choose to
take in living this new freedom…for it is entirely up to me.
Thank You.
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