THE ANSWER IS IN UNKNOWING

"The realization of God is in unknowing." --  Note in my God Calling dated this date in 2005.

I read the above note and, for whatever reason, I understood that I am still not utterly open. And I wonder, what does that, utterly open, look like to me? For sure, it's not in telling my world all my facts and acts...that's just sharing one's daily life without the drama.

So, what is utterly open? What if it is open to feeling another's pain? or their glory? or their shut-down-ness? or happiness? In short, open to others.The fact is I didn't start putting my heart, soul, body and brains into the care and concern for others until fairly recently...at my age, that's like 20 or 25 years ago.

It may be that it is enough that I realize that I am not utterly open...and that I cannot find an answer in my reasoning mind to fix me. There...there's my "realization of God is in unknowing!"

In that realization is God's completion...is my humbly asking God to remove that shortcoming.

Thank You.