I just reread an earlier note I'd written to myself in my daily reader, "I realize my core defect of character...withholding self."
That was true all those years ago, it is true today...but on an entirely different level. I don't withhold myself from my world today, but I do withhold me from God. I withhold myself every time I forget that the outcome is not mine, it's God's...the outcome of every second of my life.
I have come to believe that the only prayer necessary is "Thank you." Thank you, that all that You are, I am, we are; all that You have is mine, is ours.
Our job is to become and to stay willing to put in all the work and study and prayer necessary to come into this realization. And coming into this realization is that all the work and study and prayer is not to make it happen, but to detach from our belief that we have the burden and/or the power to make it happen...to think that truth into reality.
This good is the pure activity of God, not dependent on anything we do or do not do...all the reading, studying and meditating are merely aids to open our consciousness. The only requirement on our part is that we open consciousness to receive the word of God...and that's on His timetable. (Paraphrased from Joel Goldsmith, "The Heart of Mysticism," at pp 360-361.)
My reasoning mind knows the God of my understanding is a dragfoot, because nothing ever happens as fast as I want it. It is only in detaching from that want-mind that I can realize that which I want I already have...it's me that's the dragfoot in accepting that.
Nothing can stay the hand of God.
Thank You.
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