SEEK HIGHER HELP

More and more I realize how important the work of our conscience is in and on our lives.

I remember in high school my friend's mother warning a group of us that our plan to play a mean trick would come back to haunt us...what a hoot, and how we did laugh at that. The fact is it did haunt me years later...it was mean, we were thoughtless, the other person did not deserve it.

I ran into the person years later on the street in my hometown. I confessed to the mean trick and apologized. The punchline: She said, "Oh, I'd forgotten all about that. I knew who did it and I knew it was because you were all jealous of me. I felt kinda sorry for you." We both knew she'd scored big, that she'd gotten over on me. We laughed and hugged and went about our lives.

The rest of the story...that is exactly what my ego/reasoning mind this very day would want for me in any similar situation...to pay "them" back in kind. My knowing from my toenails up that that kind of payback perpetuates that kind of payback...repeatedly, until someone breaks the circle...does not stop my ego from wanting it.

I am so grateful I have broken that particular circle and will not need to send it out again. I am even more grateful that I know I can and will send it out again if I don't keep in fit spiritual condition on a daily basis.

Just knowing better does not cause me to do better...it just slows me down long enough to seek higher help.

Thank You.