I was talking to myself this morning, rattling on about the
fine line between my spiritual world and my ego-victory world, and it occurred
to me that there is no fine line. There is a moment in time…that moment when I
make my decision to throw in with God or to hold to my reasoning mind for
my security. (That moment of time comes more than once, thank God.)
It’s akin to living at the Grand Canyon ,
living fully and happily on this earth, but seeking more. So I keep enough
distance from the rim of the Canyon to be able to see it, risking nothing,
but occasionally edging closer…then darting back, then venturing closer…and
still closer. And there I am at the rim, looking down, stomach feeling like it
has already jumped…and I know, if I am ever going to fully realize the God I
seek, I’m going to have to take that leap of faith…trusting that I will be
caught, held close, secure.
Then my reasoning mind, bolstered by fear, kicks in with all
of its questions…how do I just DO it? What if my leap of faith is
just another self-determined objective? What if God’s true way is something
entirely different, and here’s me, hanging out there without a net?
Good news: there is no “without a net” when I’m seeking
still more spiritual growth. Better news: God does not care how I come to
him…just seek, keep seeking, seek some more. Best news: God already is…within
me, without me.
Now to live that, trusting.
Thank You.
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