IN GOD'S GOOD TIME

New discovery again. Meaning I have realized this about myself before, but it feels like a brand new insight. That happens when we do nothing about that which we find...it keeps coming back until we get it right.

I've got a couple of people-puzzlers in my life that I am less than enchanted with. I've decided to let God give me the quiet word on handling them.

When my mind is free of thoughts about either of these, I feel no special interest in which way they turn out. However, when I just touch either with a “what if?” thought, as in, “what if I did this or that?,” I can feel the agitation roiling, urging me to do something, right now, and my immediate next thought is “I know what I can do….”

New/old discovery:  I'd rather fix it p.d.q., chancing breaking it completely, than sit and wait on the Lord who, in my less than humble opinion, is a drag-foot. My way is quick, usually dirty, and utterly self-centered, but quick swings the hammer.

It is too clear that I would rather risk a friendship than wait on God's perfect outworking…even when I know that God’s perfect outworking would benefit both of us. Not because I want to get my way, but because I don’t want to wait...even for God's good.

That is right ugly. But, if I know nothing else, I do know it will not change until I air it for me to see. Can't own it till I see it, can't get shut of it till I own it. 

Thank You.