I suspect that self-determined objectives in spiritual growth are the devil's own handiwork.
As I read again Fr Richard's quote, I remembered my original response to learning that failure is our best teacher...I thought of deliberately failing so as to hurry up my spiritual growth. There it is, self-determinedly heading down that wrong road again.
A self-determined objective is nearly always the wrong way to go...face it, "self-determined" tells the tale. If we need think about it, we're already on the less-than right road.
Self-will is just another bump in the road...to fear it or fight it is to crown it the winner for we are relying on self-will to erase self-will.
Finding the gold in failure and falling short is the gift. It is in the failure, the falling short that the gold is hidden. We think about it, worry, fret and stew until we come to intellectual agreement...and then find that doesn't work either.
We must fail and fall short not to personally get but to be spiritually lifted. It's akin to the luck of God's draw.
It is so simple, and the hardest thing I've ever attempted. The paradox is that success comes by way of failing although I never deliberately tried to fail.
Ah, God's will, God's way just realized...unexplainable by the material mind.
Thank you.
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