In rites of initiation we teach people that they have to go down before they can possibly go up.*** We have to be swallowed by something bigger than ourselves. *** We have to go into a place where we are not in control, where we can’t fix it, explain it, understand it, or even like it. -- Paraphrased from Fr Richard Rohr's Daily Meditation, July 11, 2025
That I believe, and I believe with as much humility as I have been gifted.
Beginning at 3:00 AM, Wednesday, April 30th, either my rites of initiation began, or I experienced an awake nightmare. Common sense is betting on the nightmare, but spiritual growth is smiling so I'm leaning toward her.
The active experience lasted from April 30 until approximately May 7. Since then, I have felt rock steady, rocketed into orbit, upside-down and backward...yet I have never considered backing off. I felt my feelings without judging, labeling, denying, exaggerating...we're talking grace, pure grace, and I am grateful from my toes to my nose.
Through it all, I have experienced fear but never doubt. I have been pushed, pulled, directed and misdirected, but I figured if I was in the process of transitioning, I'd best let it...whatever was to come, let it...and pray thank You...which I did and do.
Knowing but knowing not what...is the best I can describe my experience.
It may be that we will ever be in transition, that there is no set place we get to except a mind at peace. A peaced mind in the midst of our world at war with itself is spiritual growth perfected.
Thank you.
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