ALL THE WHILE PRAY THANK YOU...AND MEAN IT

When we can face our own painful situation, we will discover that hidden in the pain is the treasure—a joy that is there for us to experience here and now. -- Catholic priest Henri Nouwen

I am living in my own painful situation right now...is it dementia or is it intense anxiety disorder? My fear says dementia, my life experience says anxiety. 

There it is, the nature of my own personal beast...believing my most feared, then sitting (wallowing?) in fearful favor of that, all the while praying thank You. Thank you. 

Even with a lifetime experience of diagnosed anxiety (which, I grin to remember, once was my worst fear) today I most fear dementia. So, I welcome dementia and trust the God of my understanding to push-pull...love...me through to that result if that be God's will, God's way for me. 

God always has been there for me, cannot not be there for me, and all I need do is Let It Be So. And keep my doctor's appointment today. 

Love and laugh.

Thank you.