TRANSMUTATION...EGO FEARS, GOD APPEARS

I have just begun to realize how very unthoughtful I am. I decided this morning to seek self-discipline from within...to seek not only to act thoughtful but to be thoughtful.

I had to grin...face it, Franny, another impossible decision to fulfill...another subterfuge of ego, trying to use God as its cloak. 

Yes, but! There is transmutation...when ego fears, God appears. 

When (not if) this change in me comes, it will come from within me, from the higher Power within me, carrying me through my own what-to-do, what-to-do bafflement. 

As long as we seek a self-determined objective, it is ego operating for its benefit even when it benefits not just us but others. God's love benefits ego, too, sought or not.

If a Power greater than myself, i.e., the Power within me, is not doing my thinking for me, my ego, wrapped in apprehension, seeks safe harbor out there. 

Ego is not evil, but it is not built to readily accept that there is a power greater than itself. There it is...human beings' divine choice.

Thank you.