Grace re-creates all things; nothing new happens without forgiveness. We just keep repeating the same old patterns, illusions, and half-truths. — Richard Rohr, Daily Meditation, September 14, 2024
Forgiveness. I am surprised at how resistant I am feeling at that word. Ah, how am I feeling resistant right now?
I'm feeling like that it is sanctimonious, it is pretentious, it is above my touch, it is too cool for common folk...whoa! I am very well aware that at no point am I owning these feelings of mine. No...it, the word forgiveness itself, is the victimizer...or feels like it is.
So, from my own experience, my spiritual awakenings, I realize this is not for me to look deeper into with my reasoning mind, this is for my higher Power to heal without an ask from me. When, not if, I find myself no longer doing the dirty, I'll realize that I haven't been doing the dirty for some time...that it has been lifted out, washed, brushed and put out to pasture.
Again, I am reminded that our reasoning mind is not for "figuring it out," it is for opening to the fact that all our questions have been answered...answered for our benefit, and forgiveness was the key that opened the door. Forgiveness given to us not with bells, whistles and accolades, but with a holy shrug and the recognition that our victimizer was for our benefit all along.
The why of it does not matter when we realize God's will, God's way is not for us to agree or disagree with...it is for our thank you and that is all.
We'll be three days dead before we internalize that unto our spiritual, or even personal, comfort...but we'll be heading in the right direction every step of the way. There's our pearl beyond price.
Thank you.
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