COUNTERINTUITIVE PARADOX, OR IS IT JUST ME?

Unto everyone that hath shall be given, and he shall have abundance: but from him that hath not shall be taken away even that which he hath. -- The Gospel According to Saint Matthew

There are real and vast changes taking place within each of us right now. This is about my recent ongoing experiences with unconscious changes. Interestingly, I say vast but I mean wee...too tiny to notice until they are too significant to miss. Kinda like the Gospel According to Saint Matthew.

I'm understanding getting and giving at a much higher plane...I was gobsmacked to realize that my life-pattern has been to receive hugs but to seldom as a matter of course to originate hugs. 

What brought this to the forefront happened at a meeting of friends recently...most everybody gave a hug to the friend I was standing with...all spoke, smiled, and chatted with me, none hugged me. 

Another friend who is just back from a month's vacation was there...we usually walk out together.  With no conscious thought, I did not welcome him back, nor did I wait for him to walk me out as he has done. I simply split...walked out alone and drove away. Again, with no conscious thought at all. 

My blinding flash: This is a gift of my 80s for my benefit...to learn, no matter how late the lesson, to learn to be aware...aware that each meeting with another, friend or foe, is an opportunity to give love...to give love in all its forms, not to wait for love to come to me. 

Ah, our mindset...the birthplace of God's will, God's way.  

Again, God is on the field in that we get to learn the difference between a self-determined objective and the perfect objective which is of God.

Self-determined, I would start hugging everybody in sight, even those who clearly did not want it...of God's perfect objective, I know naught. 

I have no idea how God is going to cause this change to come forth, but I trust God. He can and will reach out and give all the hugs that are stored within me that I have received from so many for so long...when he knows that I am ready. 

We make the decision; God makes it happen.

Thank you.