4. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. 5. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. -- Matthew 5:4-5
I keep being returned to those two revelatory statements. I am comforted that they are the basis...the foundation...of my faith.
My experiential truth with Matthew 5:4: To me, the valley is heart-pounding, mind-muddling panic attacks. The first time I experienced the miracle, it came by way of a full-blown panic attack with me stuck on the Metro under the Potomac River. I became calm, released from my panic, and I knew not how or why. That was my first spiritually driven thank you. My being given to anxiety, it is today the pearl that releases my fear of fear...God is with me.
Then, with 5, I had a blinding flash of the obvious: One moment I was ho-humming along, and the next Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies flashed in my mind. I could see that it is God that prepares the table, God that puts my enemies at that table, God that seats me with my enemies there. It is not me making bad decisions, me being self-centered again, me being...me. It is not me...it is God, and I need not know more than that. Trust, and be not afraid.
That realization opened the secret to a peaced mind: God works not in reasoning mind consciousness but in raised consciousness...sometimes counterintuitive, sometimes a higher consciousness than humans can grasp...or this human at any rate.
That's another reason we need never worry, fret or stew...when, not if, wrong, promptly admit it, pray for peace and keep on trucking.
There is a journey you must take. It is a journey without destination. There is no map. Your soul will lead you. And you can take nothing with you. -- Meister EckhartThank you.
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