The operative word there is not dementia...it is fear, of course. The wonder is the time it took me to realize that.
Yesterday the fear of dementia rode me hard. As I have noted before, and re-realized this morning, during this period with apparent evidence of dementia present, "God Calling" has doubled and tripled with its message of "have no fear," "trust Me," "I Am your protector and protection," and "I cannot be overcome."
What I know from my previous experience with incurable disease is that it does not mean that dementia will not come to me or it will be lifted from me. It means that if dementia is mine, I can trust God that it is for my benefit...I can trust God to take perfect care of me in my new consciousness on the plane of dementia.
Steeped in gratitude, I do trust God within me for whatever life brings...for we are ever being raised deeper to love at a higher plane.
Even now, right Now, I trust that God is raising my consciousness to the plane I have long prayed for: God consciousness.
On the other hand, I may be experiencing 80+, or old-age forgetfulness. If that be the case, all the above applies...only doubly since I'll tend not to take it as seriously.
God loves me so much...us, God loves us so much.
Thank you.
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