Any self-image, positive or negative, held too tightly, reinforces our attachment to the false self. -- Fr Richard Rohr's Daily Meditation, July 9, 2023
Yet another friend has died...three gone in six days. The lessons to learn that are sneaking, slipping, marching out from within...with a little help from my Friend...are priceless.
I was lifted deeper for Jim into unselfed love. I felt peaced for Cyn. Ah, but now...now! Bob goes out without so much as a by your leave. I got an e-mail giving the time and place of his memorial service, and I didn't even know he'd passed. There it is, the source of my full-blown resentment, not being "in on" his dying. Left out. Ignored.
Seriously. My ego went on a walkabout...an obsessed walkabout...with ways to let it be known that I was wronged...the old, "What am I, chopped liver?" singing loud and proud.
Our commitment to still more spiritual growth can, will and does carry the burden of proof that God has our back. I began the serious work of letting God change my mind (which boils down to trust God and fret not).
This has reawakened my unloved, unneeded, unwanted, unappreciated hangup...but now with the cure, love and laugh. Trust uses the roughage of self to ensure we know God's will, God's way...always and all ways.
The first words I heard in my quiet time this morning, You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies, proved my chopped liver to be God's pearl beyond price.
My now cure is that my egoic enemies, unloved, unneeded, unwanted, unappreciated, are words signifying nothing but a good reason to love and laugh when taken too seriously.
Our forever cure is that our enemies are all egoic in nature signifying nothing but a good reason to love and laugh when taken too seriously.
Best: Jim, Cyn and Bob have a seat saved for us at the table.
Thank you.
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