I posted that quote on December 9, 2013...it fits me like a glove today. That good fit just flashed the reason why an uptight, skin's on crooked, something ain't right feeling has been riding my spine. I am meeting later today with my executrix/beneficiary...getting my estate in order, giving up all my account numbers, passwords, money amounts. No one but I have ever had any of those.
Clearly, I am struggling with my own shadow self...I'm asking me to trust another human being with my material security. There are claw marks on my Soul from trying to trust God, skid marks on my very being, and that's from sincerely trying to trust the One I know as Love.
Another flash...and a deeper realization. It is not just giving up the keys to my material security, it is the portent of my Will coming into its own. What if that is unexpectedly soon?
I understand that is a natural Uh-Oh and Whoa feeling...I got that understanding from talking my parents off the ledge when they were going through this. But this is me. And the folks are strolling across Heaven now.
I am getting a deeper understanding of why love and laugh are so prevalent in "God Calling." I'm already grinning at my feelings of fear and trepidation.
Light bulb: I "found" the above Fr Richard quote today to assure me: All of these are gateways into deeper consciousness and the flowering of the soul.
Thank you.
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