I doubt not that is truth...the rest of the story for me is: We walk that spiritual path not by conscious thought but by spiritual discernment. In other words, from within out.
We do not recognize it as such when we are just putting one foot in front of the other in our material world awareness, but there are times when we have gone against our baser wants utterly unaware that we did the right thing or took the right action. There...our proof that we now live not by thought but by spiritual intuity.
Then again, there are times when we make a less-than-best decision. These are the times when thank you earns its keep. As soon as we realize our error, we out loud admit it, pray thank you, and trust our Self, and counsel with another, to turn us around.
Paradoxically it is these times, the stumble, trip and fall times, that become our spiritual growth spurts. As Fr Richard says, "We don't get to God by doing it right, we get to God by doing it wrong."
The lesson we are so slow to learn is that beating ourself for our stumbles is flat-out ego...inviting our ego's happy dance. Praising our error rather than regretting it goes against common sense, or our reasoning mind. But God's will goes against common sense if we're doing it right. Ego masquerades as God's guidance every chance it gets, our regretting is ego's little helper.
Here's where we learn to pray thank you not only for our misstep but for ego itself. We show it some love and discover yet another paradox...giving ego our thank you peaces it for Now. Ego lives in resistance...with nothing to resist, it is quieted.
When we can live that, live nonresistant, we breathe freer.
Thank you.
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