Lately I have been experiencing intense rues, regrets and remorses for not knowing: I did not know, and I should have known, others knew or would have known. Over and over and over.
I was inner-forgiven this morning for not knowing.
As I was preparing for my quiet time, forgiveness, smiling, slow-walked through me. I did not clutch, I did not deny, I did not grab hold; I did naught but smile back and continue into my quiet time. And I knew peace.
This, I'm thinking, is my sliver of gold for when (not if) the remorses call again. Based on my own experience, they will call again...they need to call again. But, no! I may be over-thinking. My Father is walking me down a new path...the rues coming again may this time be an if, not a when.
If there is a need, it is mine. and I am ready. I can welcome it...hug it and kiss it, loose it and let it go.
Now, however, I hold my nose and take a leap of faith...I am ready now. That's what I experienced this morning in toto with a God-loves-me ribbon on it. I go forward accepting that as mine.
Resist not, Beloved, God is on the field.
Thank you.
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