RESIST NOT GOD'S HIDDEN WILL

I saw years ago that learning about death for the first time...my grandfather's death when I was two years old...set the course of my life. The unconscious long/short of that news: Death meant being left all alone; ergo, never let anyone in, guaranteeing never being left all alone. 

A recent blinding flash has redirected my thinking. What if my being all alone has ever been God's will for me? What if my being all alone was my before-conception invitation to God into my life? 

  

Knowing me, if I'd not lived alone, spiritual growth may have made it to my bucket list, but it never would have headed my To-Do Today List. 

If I hadn't been alone free to choose for my better self, would I have spent years studying the Sermon? Seeking still more spiritual growth as my primary mover in life? "Doubtful" is being kind to me.

Looking back at my life through my new perspective re God's will, there is nothing about living alone that I have been unhappy with...for long. I've had all the "agony and the ecstasy" that life offers, and if I do say so myself, I've done a fairly fine job of it. And who's kidding whom...purely through the grace of God and help from friends, lovers and nonfriends. 

Still looking back, where it seems my deeper learning is blossoming today, I recognize that my nonfriends did more for my spiritual growth than most anything else. Nonfriends require us to get over our own self...which is pretty much all there is to still more spiritual growth, isn't it? 

Is it the nonfriend who stands between God and us? No. It is our resistance to the nonfriend...and all else for that matter...that is our block. 

Resist not, love and laugh, get over ourself...God's will plain and simple. According to me.

Thank you.