WHEN IN NEED, SEEK INSIDE HELP

My dream: I am standing at the edge of a precipice with a rope bridge across to the other side and a ravening beast, whose name is Ego, is fast coming up behind. If I go forward, that rickety bridge probably will not hold me, and I will fall to a horrific death; if I stand still, Ego will eat me alive. Do I trust God to hold the bridge together for me? So I can walk out into an unknown, but hopeful, life, or go to my go-to, ego, known but less-than-wonderful. That fear is God in camouflage...I it is who calls me forward; i, Lucy, it is whose self-centered fear holds me back. Go with God and be saved from self.

We first hear about initiation as something deeply religious initiates once had to go through on their way to full priesthood. 

Then we began to hear that initiation is the only entryway into a spiritually based life. It is the framework for our decision, the decision we need to make to turn our life and our will over to the care of God...specifically, to turn away from our self-determined objectives.

We are coming to believe that life is initiation...if we are paying attention, everyday we are presented with the choice to trust God or to go with our free will. It takes discipline (ongoing, neverending discipline) to hesitate, to wait for the Lord's input. Face it, it's the same common courtesy we allow a friend in a like situation, yet our free will too often wins. 

Our will is a toughie to hug and kiss and let go of. Yes! Because it needs to be. The easier the task, the shorter its shelf life. The harder the task, the surer it is that we'll need to seek help. 

Our hardest lesson a-learning: The help we need is inside. We'll need to seek inside help to turn away from self toward Self. 

We go to God for God...and that is all.

Thank you.