The great lesson we learn is that the results are already in. As we live our life, the grace of God goes one step ahead making the crooked places straight. God performs our life and all its miracles in the Now.
We can quit praying for what we perceive we need, which is in truth simply our wants, and trust our thank you for gifts as yet unseen but simultaneously unfolding. Lift up our eyes.
I was humbled when I discovered, admitted and accepted that my most earnest desire had never been for love or for money...it had ever been for glory. Glory in the disguise of a simple atta girl, a pat on the head, a heartfelt Yes! now and then.
It was only through deep digging with my mentor and my friends, not to forget the grace of God, that I realized that I get those almost daily...we all do in one form or another. But, tell me, is it ever enough? Not to put too fine a point on it, but NO. A simple atta girl? Give me a break...after all I did and do? I get an atta girl? So says my ego Lucy, sotto voce.
I'm half humbled, half tickled this morning to suspect that what I am walking through right now is God's vision of my glory. The old mirror vision...I'm seeing crapola, God's seeing gold. The good news is that I know from my toenails up that we must walk through our own crapola, put our own name on it, kiss it on the lips, and laugh out loud...or at least giggle a little...at our own self.
If that be true, then God is pleased for me, for my soul. That's close enough to perfect for me.
Thank you.
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