If I truly trust God, I cannot doubt myself.
That thought floated across my mind as I sat in stillness this morning. In pondering it later, I think that may well be true but possible only if I'm honestly seeking to do God's will, not mine.
We cannot try to "win" using our self-centered ways, then blame God for the result if it turns up ugly. Nor, for that matter, can we credit God for the result if it appears to be for our benefit for, who's kidding whom, that just opened the door for karma's entry whenever...usually long after we've forgotten our "win.".
It is winning through our self-determined ways that allows karma alone to bite us in the butt someday someway. It is karma that brings with it that delicious feeling of being The Victim...unfair...not right...and why me? That victim-feeling, our ego's theme song, we learn the extremely hard way is all but addictive.
The simplest way to avoid attachment to that victim, i.e., self (pity, protection, glory, etc.) is to throw in with a power greater than our own reasoning mind...God in a word. Want-to heads us in the right direction, it just doesn't get us there...that takes discipline. Ah-ha...self-discipline. We can't dismiss self entirely...with God at the wheel, self is the tool, and the way becomes less crooked, a tish smoother, more soothing to our Soul.
Kill self and Self arises...within and without.
Thank you.
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