I saw the light this morning! The light of understanding that I am living that which I say and (apparently) had not quite believed was true. By that I mean, it has seemed as if I am walking a road strewn with garbage...daily. And it takes no great thought to guess aright whose name is on that garbage, and it is not mine. It's yours.
Here's my learning process: I do know, if only from my eyebrows up, this is I See Me plain and simple. But from my toes to my nose, I'm feeling a tish scared, slightly put-upon...who's kidding whom, unloved, unwanted, unneeded and unappreciated is what I've been feeling.
Great stand-up-and-shout news! This morning my blinding flash of the obvious was: All that I'm experiencing is God's crooked road that he is going before me and making straight. It has to be there in order for him to make it straight...I need worrit not about the how-to, I just need to start and keep on walking.
With that came memories of events in my life that at the time I seriously wondered if I could get through. Fear rode me like a pack mule...if it wasn't lack of money, it was lack of knowledge or lack of social grace or lack of six other things...it was fear of lack, why try to enumerate. But each situation worked out and worked out for my benefit and never in a way I would have imagined. Of course, that means some of the workings out took their own sweet time for me to realize that this result was for my benefit. That's how faith is built. Can I get an Amen!
God gave me a hug and an atta girl! this morning. And I am grateful... doubly grateful actually for with his hug he let you off the hook, too!
Thank you.
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