I continue to ponder my realization that both our ego and our God live within us, are invisible to us, yet one or the other controls our every thought, word and deed.
I am having a wonderful time perceiving my ego as Lucy, the name that God gave to me for her...at which time he also let me know that she is his friend with whom he is well pleased. (I suspect he is well pleased with her because she cracks him up.) Every fact and act of Lucy's invisible existence is for her pleasure, pride and privilege. Since each goes contrary to God's will, she must lose, and only God can come to her aid...and only through me.
God loves Lucy in spite of herself...probably because of herself. But also because God cannot not love.
The reasoning mind cannot get us into God's will or out of Lucy's way, but it is the tool we've been given to use to aid in our continuing education about that fact. Without our reasoning mind seeing and saying that we're going down that wrong road again, we'd never know the relief, when wrong, of promptly admitting it.
Just as important, it's our reasoning mind that assures us we are growing spiritually when we've given over to another...there's no better feeling than that inner "You done good, girl!"
Quite simply, I believe God's will for me is whatever benefits others...with God, whatever I do I do for others. Lucy's will for me is for the benefit of me...with ego, whatever I do I do for me.
God is nonresistance...open, free-flowing; ego is resistance...rigid, righteous and right. Resist not....
Thank you.
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