So I had a blinding flash of the obvious sometime last March which told me that the first step we take in faith is a complete journey. I have pondered that off and on ever since.
I wonder if that which we fear, that we pray passes us by, doesn't become that first step...that involuntary step...the one that comes as we lie hopeless in our smoldering ashes having just crashed and burned. For that is grace. Over which we have no control, no say-so, no input.
That which we fear (or want) so completely that we crash and burn trying to keep it away (or get it) is our ego in control. It takes the crash-and-burn to eliminate the bondage of self-will...to leave us without a thought. And there it is. The almighty grace of God...or the grace of almighty God. Either way, our reasoning mind is not participating...it is in awe. And the first step in faith is completed.
The second step is to remain in that faith...the paradox being, trying to remain as faithful as we were in our moment of grace is just another self-determined objective. We're trying to keep God in a box on call for our security, our wants. We're still focused out there when he is here, within us, ready to fulfill our needs.
Living our belief starts with that singular realization that God is in everything or God is in nothing...God is or God is not. We hear people say that God doesn't wash windows...I say that he may not, but I believe that he can if needed. It's our need, not our want, that invites God's perfect work.
That's our second step in remaining as faithful as we were at our moment of grace. We believe that God can and will if needed; then we do our part and...blink...we're freed usually in a way we could never have considered.
Thank you.
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