Doing, actually doing, spiritual growth is a pain. Me never gets to win. I wish I were talking to you...I could set you straight in a minute. As in, "Me winning is just an ego trip. It's in giving over to God's will that we get our spiritual win. That's where the peace we seek is."
To which i feel like saying, "Baloney."
Finding my gold, I am grateful that I do know that this me-trip won't last long. It makes my very heart hurt is why. I am grateful that I know that this is just me walking in the right direction.
I can't remember how long it's been since I've had a me-attack that did not end with me gladly giving over. Which is no great shakes...I have no choice today. Because I know that there is no win, there is no ultimate feeling of win, in not giving over. I have been there too many times, and it's a harder trip back then it is staying in God's giving-over place.
And for knowing that, I am truly grateful.
Thank You.
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