We do not get to choose who our angel-messengers will be. The very person on whom we look with anger and contempt may very well be the one with the message we need most to hear.
In 1997 I went through an extremely painful period that today I believe was my spiritual preparation period. It had to do with a good friend of mine who proved not to be such a good friend. I was a few years into learning the power of paradox; i.e., to not react in kind, to turn the other cheek, to agree with my adversary quickly, etc.
Holding myself and myself only to account was very difficult, not to mention excruciatingly painful. For me, life is a "we program" so I had to share my hurt and anger with one spiritually guided person who did not let me live in the problem of the friend, but to stay focused on me...to choose my thought-reactions. I am still grateful.
It was nine years later, in 2006, that I finally realized that my friend, who to my reasoning mind turned out not to be a friend, was my true angel. If not for her and her actions, I would never have dug so deeply, prayed my "Thank You" so constantly, blessed her so unceasingly...and I would have missed my within gift entirely.
I remember this now because of today's God Calling entry which in 1997 I had underlined in red. It states: "Painful as this time is you will one day see the reason of it, and see too that it was not cruel testing, but tender preparation for the wonderful life-work you are to do. Try to realize that your own prayers are being most wonderfully answered...in a way that seems painful to you, but that just now is the only way."
It went on to say, "Great success, in both temporal and spiritual worlds, awaits you." I had underlined that in green and in 2006 had written, "This is true in my life, and I am just now really realizing it."
I'd just been notified that I had been elected into my previous workplace's Hall of Honor, and I was still in awe of the fact that a few years earlier I had been given the gift of forgiveness of my friend...which gift was greater than any outside honor and I knew it.
The one we're resenting right this minute may very well be...no, IS...an angel in disguise. Recognize her...call him by his real name, "Blessed."
Thank You.
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