TO LOVE THE ME I SEE

I noticed one of my hand-written notes in today's "God Calling." It was dated 1990, and I'd written, "To love the me I see." I must say I was impressed that I knew enough 23 years ago to seek to love the me I see...which today I see as the answer to X percent of life's problems.

I've been pondering that this morning, and when I sat down to write this, I reread the note.

I did not even notice that the full sentence read "to love the me I see in Joe Doaks."  Joe Doaks in 1990 was the bane of my existence. I was all but struck mute. No wonder I don't remember writing that or rereading it every year since...that is way above my walking around self.

But it is, of course, the real answer. Self-acceptance. It isn't Sylvia Schloppenhaufer we need to accept...Sylvia and all her ignorant ways. It is us and all our ignorant ways...that we see so clearly in Sylvia and Joe, et al,  and miss so completely in ourselves.

I hope I make that my new year's goal: To love the me I see in you when you're reflecting the less than wonderful part of me. Geez, it's not even noon on the first day of the new year, and I've made my goal too complicated already! I'll be successful if I just love the me I see and trust the rest to God.

Thank You.