RESENTMENT IS BORN IN RESISTANCE

I'm convinced all our problems start with that first resistant thought. It doesn't each and every time result in a resentment, but if a resentment is born, that resistant thought was its seed.

Resistance is of the reasoning mind...the mind that lives in "I'm right, you're wrong" which, I'm betting, has never brought true or lasting happiness to anyone anywhere. And yet we continue to rely on our reasoning mind as if it were our only hope in a world run amok.

The only hope of happiness begins with ego deflation...the teeniest bit of  willingness to give over to rather than get over on is all we need to start the process of ego deflation. There will come a time when we can say, and mean, "You're right, I'm wrong." Our reasoning mind flinches at the thought.

I remember a job I left, and on the leaving, management did a dastardly thing...which I'd go into but I don't remember the details. And there's the proof of the gift. Because I went home, talked with my mentor and my friends, and fairly quickly decided I did not want to go to my new job with this muck and mire in my mind, dripping off me. I examined the whole situation from their point of view until I could understand where they were coming from. Since I already agreed with me, to keep looking at it from my point of view would only sink me deeper into resentment. I wrote them a short note which said, in effect, "You're right, I was wrong," mailed it and forgot about it. One of my greatest gifts to me.

The hardest part to remember when on the trail of ego deflation in depth...the ego never dies. One great gift to myself, and one would think that is now nailed...but a couple years later a friend and I were disagreeing about something. I didn't want  it to get out of hand so I self-determined I'd fix it by just saying she was right, I was wrong...whoa. Imagine my surprise when I found that that was an ego trip in itself.

The starting point for ego deflation in depth is to go to God, to seek Thy will, not mine. Then feel the resistance and kiss it on the lips...kiss it good-bye. This is not a one-shot deal. Be prepared to sit and wait on the Lord. Then wait some more. The trick is to do something for somebody else while waiting.

Thank You.