Oh, blinding flash: The many little trips, slips and corrections that make up our daily life are in fact detaching us from the ego. We think of them as rues, regrets and remorses and try oh-so-hard to correct ourself, yet those comprise the steps up to higher consciousness.
A recent experience of mine tells my truth that I missed as it was happening: Recently I needed to go to my retina specialist whose office is a half hour away and I usually go by Lyft. As I was sharing this with a friend, she interrupted before I finished, saying that she knew exactly where the office was, and she would give me a ride, no problem. Up front admission: I doubted she knew exactly, etc., because I had not even finished my share. But, and for whatever reason that I did not examine, I agreed to her giving me a ride. Came the drive out there and we got so lost, I'm surprised we were still in our home state. A friendly passerby, using her app, gave us directions to my doctor's office, and we got there right on time to the minute.
The punchline: I did not feel upset, angry, afraid of being late (a favorite fear of mine), even minorly peeved...I held no grudge, felt not a whit superior (another favorite), and all but forgot about it until I read Fr Richard this morning...and felt a blinding flash of the obvious: I had felt no resistance to the moment...my ego was detached entirely.
There it is...no resistance to the moment is being spiritually present...mentally, ego reduction in depth, which road we must walk to get to the other side...no shortcuts.
The important fact that I almost lost here...I was unaware of the spiritual transformation taking place within me...my nonresistance in a word. It being a given my human state of mind has ever been anxiety-driven, yet I had no negative or ginned-up positive feelings toward anything or anybody.
As I look back, I realize I was in a state of mind of What Is...period. No frills, no fears. Hugged by God comes to mind, and I love it.
Thank you.
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