REGRETS AND WOES, TOO, NEED GOD'S LOVE

'Reposing in oneself' … probably best expresses my own love of life: I repose in myself. And that part of myself, that deepest and richest part in which I repose, is what I call 'God.' -- Dutch Jewish writer Etty Hillesum

Blinding flash of the obvious: I am on the right track heading in the right direction...away from reliance on the reasoning mind toward still more spiritual awakening. 

That BFO calls me to repeat: Turning 80 is a whole new level of life...it is akin to being in kindergarten for the elderly. Doubts, dreads, fears...rues, regrets, remorses...they all live but they are met by our spiritual growth, the punch line of which is love and trust...then laugh.

All of my Quiet Time readings for the past month or so have reassured me that my early realization of spiritual growth as my true path still holds true. 

Today's God Calling and Easwaran both demand reliance on God alone. 

God Calling: ...so much retained by you, so much the less will be gained from Me.

William Law's quote in Easwaran is my quiet word: Though God is everywhere present, yet He is only present in thee in the deepest and most central part of thy soul....This depth is called the centre, the fund or bottom of the soul....Awake, then, thou that sleepest, and Christ, who from all eternity has been espoused to thy soul, shall give thee light.

I have read that quote in particular for years and only this morning have I become readied for its meaning...to me personally. 

The good and the bad news both together...I have become readied, I do believe, I doubt not, and I will experience rues, regrets and remorses again...when, not if, I am doing it right. 

Nothing turns me to God faster than fear...rues, regrets and remorses leading the way. Clearly, they, too, need God's love, and I'm their Source. How sweet it is!

Thank you.