THY WILL, THY WAY...TRUST AND WONDER

To grow to our full height, we need to be challenged with tasks that draw out our deeper resources, the talents and capacities we did not know we had. We need to be faced with obstacles that cannot be surmounted unless we summon every last ounce of our daring and creativity. -- Eknath Easwaran, "Words to Live By," March 13

My thinking, feeling, doing, being all seem to be roiling together in a cauldron of confusion...or is it wonderment?

A week ago today I said to a friend...without thinking, apropos of nothing...I Am God. I said it without thought or mental preparation...the words just fell from my lips. Neither of us said so, but it's not too hard to imagine that as put-offable.

Today, I wonder if my saying "I am God" was a turning point. Ah, there's my stuck place...my fear of mild cognitive disorder or my hoped-for raised consciousness turning point?  

The timing is the key...a year ago, I would have been ecstatic for my spiritual breakthrough, today with the fear of MCD coming on, I wonder...and pray thank you.  

OR those words may come to be the door opening for my doubting-but-seeking friend's still more spiritual growth. For sure they rattled her...who's kidding whom, they rattled me! 

Honestly, I got to my knees this morning and thanked God for my quandary...then read the Easwaran quote above and knew it for me for this day. Don't tell me God's not got my back. 

Thy will, Thy way...we can trust whether MCD or spiritual growth, Thy will, Thy way is for our benefit. 

Thank you.