From my 12/7/17 post:
Everything that is happening to me, that is happening in my life right this very instant is answered prayer...is the answer to my very own prayer as generated by my thoughts, my judgments, my fears, my praise, my pleasures.
It is what I do with this answered prayer that determines my ability to accept my life right this very instant. The more accepting I am (transparent), the more content or more giving I will feel. The less accepting I am (opaque), the nastier and needier I will feel.
It is what I do with this answered prayer that determines my ability to accept my life right this very instant. The more accepting I am (transparent), the more content or more giving I will feel. The less accepting I am (opaque), the nastier and needier I will feel.
There it is. That which was my truth in 2017 was built 100 percent on my experience...and today feels wobbly at best if not on fractured legs.
Since I long ago simplified my life by accepting that there are only two feelings, love and fear, from which all other feelings flow, then I am today walking through fear. More important is my inner knowing that the promised initiation into higher consciousness is continuing.
It is that acceptance that gives me over to the care and feeding of a Power greater than myself while I continue to feel empty-headed, fuzzy-minded...yet calm. A new sense of anxious calm for sure, as in no shaky hands (my anxiety's one-time standard bearer), no fear that I am losing my mind...well, slight apprehension of Mental Cognitive Disorder the test for which I aced at the doctor's office (ahem).
Mainly, I recognize this is not only for just getting through now, but I suspect it is to be the inner core of my life. Anything I know now is guidance for letting go of anything I know now. If we don't feel fear in that situation, we're not doing it right.
I am reminded that nothing turns me to God faster than fear. There...already gratitude is sprouting her wings.
Thank you.
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