We cannot experience rebirth, being 'born again,' without experiencing some real form of death first.... The old self always has to die before the new self can be born, which is the Passover experience we resist. - Fr Richard Rohr's Daily Meditation, March 24, 2024
This morning I am pondering this note that I wrote in my daily on this day in 2015: [Gertrude] again blows up...calls me names and excuses herself...again I think 'thank you'--acceptance and gratitude.
This has two-fold interest to me: First, it dates when my friend first "broke bad" with me for she is now in full-blown dementia. I suspect that was the beginning of her disease...nine years ago at least. Second, it is evidence that I was comfortably living my thank you at least nine years ago.
This is of interest, not real importance, because I'm still thinking of it as my "new" way of life as if my rewiring began a week or two ago. Actually, that is good. Every day we live...without thought...in our higher consciousness raises our consciousness a tish more.
The experience with my acceptance of my friend and her blow-up at me is evidence of a small egoic death. My reasoning mind self coulda, woulda, shoulda shut her up in a heartbeat...I have earned respect, and I'll get it if I ...fill in the ugly blank.
It was at least 45 years ago that I first read the sentence we must go beyond reason to love. I knew it for truth even as I read it and even if I did not know how...I realized that was for me to learn.
We never need fret about how we are going to get our spiritual needs met...we have our angel bending over us, whispering Grow.
Thank you.
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