Enlightenment. The perfect word for the instant of realization.
My enlightening moment came this morning when I realized that all alone has ever been my self-determined objective. All the while my egoic mind has feared all alone.
This realization came by way of a cat food commercial. (God's will, God's way sometimes comes with a giggle.) Cat, of course, is adorable, and is wandering around the kitchen, sniffing for the food...Cat in her voiceover is "yesing" this and "noing" that, and at one point she says, "OK, pet me." A human hand comes down and touches Cat's head, and Cat says, "OK, that's enough," and she moves on.
In that instant, I knew. I am a cat person. I knew from my toenails up that is me, and that has never not been me. OMG, I am a cat person. Here's me...almost always kinda dreading my thought of me as the untrained puppy type person...the too-friendly, in-your-face-and-lick-it person.
Another discovery about enlightenment is that it rarely comes unaccompanied. Here it is, dragging the rest of my story behind it.
My recent journaling has been leading me to this realization...to the ribbon running through my life. Starting with the realization of my childhood PTSD experience which helped lead me as an adult into a program, spiritual in nature, that turned me inward to the God of my own understanding.
In the instant of recognizing Cat as me, a boatload of questions got answered...if not with a belly laugh at least with a grin.
With grit, gratitude and grace, we take as long as we take...with whatever tools are best for our awakening. God does not take shortcuts.
Thank you.
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