Given my ongoing anxiety of which I have written so much lately, I found my blog of July 15, 2014, all but prescient. This, then, is lifted partially from that blog:
There has been no greater impetus to my spiritual growth than my anxiety, my golden goose. For nothing else did cause me to seek God so deeply, so completely.
According to Fr. Richard Rohr, "...we need to stand in that position for our own conversion. We need to be in a position to actually need the mercy of God, the forgiveness of God, the grace of God."
That's it. Our own need for God, in whatever form it takes (anxiety, illness, loss) determines his flow through us in whatever form that takes (mercy, forgiveness, grace...love).
There. It keeps coming back until we get it right, although I strongly suspect "until we get it right" is wishful, or ego, thinking. That presumes an ending...we get it right. Face it, it keeps coming back for our still more spiritual growth...neverending.
Oh my. Clearly...slowly but clearly...still more spiritual growth is a forever thing, not an until death do us part thing. Since for me there is life after death, my spiritual growth will keep on keeping on...with anxiety riding herd for God.
Thank you.
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