I have no idea who first said that, but I used it in a post back in 2012...who said it first is immaterial, it is the doing and the need for the reminder to do it that is balm to my heart this day. Which proves its truth.
What I recognize today as the "hardest part" is the different levels of "discipline of self" that we go through. We long ago set a time in the morning to pray, meditate, journal, ponder...daily. That, however, has not kept the egoic mind from trucking right along...like as if we never heard of spiritual growth.
I'm free-floating with anxiety now and, as I've written about, I have been for a while. I called 911 with the first bout, and the first responders, finding nothing, called their cardiac unit...nothing identified itself to them either as "the" problem. They offered to take me to the hospital if I wanted...I passed on that.
Early yesterday morning anxiety began an on-again-off-again run which lasted for several hours. I did my thing and made my peace with riding it through...it slunk away after a while.
This morning it is panting at the door. I welcome it with my thank you prayer, what the reasoning mind calls doing nothing but trusting. Yet my practicing the presence today is to follow directions: Sit and wait on the Lord.
Believe it, that is the hardest part.
Thank you.
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