Well, now. What is right in front of me...I've been letting that slip-slide around in my thoughts for the past couple weeks. The part about that being the purest form of spirituality in particular. Because what has been right in front of me for the past few weeks has been causing me pause. I am again in the yoyo phase of spiritual growth...choosing between "irritating, agitating, and less-than" to reason and "thank you for righting me" to Spirit.
Being over 80 I speak from experience...most everything useful (spiritual in particular) that I learned back in the day, and have comfortably lived, is today being presented to me at a different angle, a new level. It feels elementary but without causing blushes...no egoic regrets.
Recently, a good friend who is some 25 years younger than I, gently corrected me...more than once...on an opinion I was offering. To be clear, it was an opinion to me, it was a judgment to her. She handled it lightly and with humor...correctly, in fact.
I saw me...me back in the day when I, too, was my friend. I knew and I corrected...lightly and with humor...not offensive and in fact helpful. (Today, just a tish put-offable....😉)
Ah, but that very put-offable lifted my eyes and makes my point: Except for love and love alone, there is no set-in-concrete for God and still more spiritual growth.
We do not stay at the place of our learning...stuck in self as it were. As we freely choose the direction toward which we want to move...upward deeper...God is already there leading, protecting, guarding and guiding whether we know it or not.
My journal entry from April 12th: I am seeing me acting jaded, negative, a lot...my responses about my knees are borderline self-pitying...is this, then, God speaking through me, too? Taking me back to the way I was? Ready now to be deep-cleaned by God...the few leftover crumbs and dust bunnies being embraced into oblivion?
Today, the answer to my "me" question is, You betcha...and I am grateful.
Thank you.
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